Feeling A Little…Lighter?

This is strange for me. I feel something that I wouldn’t be so bold to call happiness, but I am slightly optimistic, and I feel…contented?

There’s this guy at work. Lets call him D. Ever since my ex broke up with me, D has gone out of his way to keep me smiling. That day I was sitting in the staff room sobbing, he gently rubbed my back a little before he walked back out of the door. He didn’t say anything. I guess he didn’t know what to say.

He gives me cuddles a lot, and 90% of the time he goes to hug me first. If I ask, he doesn’t mind a bit. We have playfights and ticklefights, and he flirts with me quite a bit. Today he gave me a cuddle and when he broke away from me he sort of flicked my chin affectionately (not hard or anything, and it wasn’t a flick, but flick is the only word I could use). I guess he sort of brushed my chin (deliberately). It doesn’t sound a lot. But it means a lot to me. No matter how bad I’m feeling when I walk into work, when he turns round and smiles at me, I feel sort of warmer. A little lighter.

I don’t have any deep feelings for him, or anything like that, but I like how he makes me feel cared for, and whether anything comes of this or not, it doesn’t matter, I won’t be heartbroken or anything, but I do hope we can get a little bit closer. I think I need it.

I think I have a crush

Don’t tell anyone x

~ by confessionsxofxaxteenagexrockxchick on July 16, 2008.