What Is Wrong With Me
I went to sleep for like an hour. It’s nearly 20 past 8. In the evening. I fell asleep listening to Nirvana on my iPod. I’m probably going to go back to sleep in a bit. I don’t want to do anything, but I don’t want to do nothing either. My head feels like my brain is drowning. I just want to sleep. And stay asleep. Logic is telling me that I have a life ahead of me, and things to look forward to, but I don’t feel any pleasure, or hope, or happiness. I’ve suffered with depression for a long time. And it just won’t go away. It just keeps coming back. Time and time again. Even Ben & Jerry’s Cookie Dough Ice Cream doesn’t taste good anymore…and that was my favourite…I need to get away from my head…
~ by confessionsxofxaxteenagexrockxchick on July 9, 2008.
Posted in Depression / Anxiety
Tags: Ben & Jerry's, cookie dough, Depression / Anxiety, iPod, Nirvana, Radio Friendly Unit Shifter, sleep, tired
Try being optimistic..not on life in general…but day by day or week by week etc -is there anything your looking forward to thats approaching soon?? xx
Well, every minute I get older.
Every minute I age, is another minute closer to the day I die.
I guess thats something I could look forward to?
Just kidding. Although that’s not funny.
It’s just me being my cynical self. I apologise.
Well yes, I turn 18 in two days and I’m trying my best to look forward to it.